i love him. [ our anniversary day. ] *112605 we messed up the date in the picture

hm. well i didnt go.
yet i still think about what i would be doing if i were there.
i still cant belive i didnt go. i guess like i really had no reason to go. i do but i dont you know? &the last night i was supposed to have in japan i had alot of thinking in my mind. i was in yokota. and just thinking and high as hell. &i knew that if i didnt listen to myself that i would of made a decision that would effect me? idk its hard to explain. so i choose to stay here in japan.
maybe im crazy or maybe im just going insane.
but something made me stay here &i dont regret it one bit.
i just hope i made the right decision to stay.

--x// yea. the slut for sure.

YES!
haha im excited.
hm this summer has been ok.
went to harajuku and everywhere off base with ruri-chan.
&yes. chilled with aaron amanda &went to kota.
sha la la l ala.
2 MORE WEEKS.<3
cant wait.

all the pictures we took are burned &gone forever
MUHAHAHA.

yea im sad. ive been sad for like 2 days now. cuz um erin moved. &i miss her terribly. WOO. damnit.

i sit and hear you sleep;i dont want to go;your there beside me;but your so far away;i talk to you while your asleep;you cant hear a word;you can hear everything;tears are feelings we cant say;tears mean that you care;tears are mixed emotions;tears are more than tears;the pooring rain from my eyes;means to much to keep inside;i sit and watch you leave;my life forever;i know youll be gone so long my last words are nothing;and i tell you i care and nothing more;i cant say how i feel so i cry;

yes we were crying in this pic. <//3